She both does not want him to notice how she is sort of silently freaking out a bit, and also would please like him to notice and fix it. Can he do that? ... She's not sure she wants him to! She does not like the idea of needing someone else to help fix her, it's - sort of hypocritical of her, she realizes, but she doesn't.
Nnnnnrgh why are things so difficult, this is hard, she would like to just, not have things be difficult like this.
...
Okay. Stop. Stop freaking out. Stop.
She has the self control to halt this shit and re-evaluate. Freak out, you are pending results of re-evaluation.
Obviously she is Not Ready For A Relationship Right Now, if she is freaking out at just the hint of maybe going on a date with Miles. That's, she'll - not. She will not. Maybe when she is a bit more - well, a bit less this, she can possibly Attempt To Date The Cute Well-Spoken Vor. And until then she sees no reason as to why she shouldn't be his friend. She does actually want to be his friend, along with the - the confusing blurble of romantic whatever. So she can pick the just friends option without much regret. So this is now Solved. Good? Good.
Phew. Okay. Now. Does she still want to go do a fun thing?
...
Actually, no. She kind of wants to go curl up in bed for several hours and not do things, having a mild internal freak out is draining.
Well, that solves that, though she'll likely want to go do a fun thing with Miles later, for sure. Okay. That she can do. She has had friends before, if not best friends, she can handle this, sort of, if she sticks to script.
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Nnnnnrgh why are things so difficult, this is hard, she would like to just, not have things be difficult like this.
...
Okay. Stop. Stop freaking out. Stop.
She has the self control to halt this shit and re-evaluate. Freak out, you are pending results of re-evaluation.
Obviously she is Not Ready For A Relationship Right Now, if she is freaking out at just the hint of maybe going on a date with Miles. That's, she'll - not. She will not. Maybe when she is a bit more - well, a bit less this, she can possibly Attempt To Date The Cute Well-Spoken Vor. And until then she sees no reason as to why she shouldn't be his friend. She does actually want to be his friend, along with the - the confusing blurble of romantic whatever. So she can pick the just friends option without much regret. So this is now Solved. Good? Good.
Phew. Okay. Now. Does she still want to go do a fun thing?
...
Actually, no. She kind of wants to go curl up in bed for several hours and not do things, having a mild internal freak out is draining.
Well, that solves that, though she'll likely want to go do a fun thing with Miles later, for sure. Okay. That she can do. She has had friends before, if not best friends, she can handle this, sort of, if she sticks to script.
"Are you going to be busy tomorrow?" she wonders.